today has been extremely difficult. I need you so much mom. I wish you were here for me so i would have you my mom to talk to when things get tough. I dont have anyone that i can talk to. dad has his own life that doesnt include me anymore. you were our foundation and when you died so did our family. my heart is hurting so bad right now and i dont know what to do. I wish you could give me some sign somehow to guide me through what i am going through right now. i love you so much and i miss you even more.. love your baby carrie sue