Hi Mom. God I miss you!!! I know its been awhile since i wrote anything, but you know how i am, lazy haha. I am going to Colorado on the 19th. To see Uncle Walt. He is not doing too good and this will probably be my last chance to see him before he is in HEAVEN with you. It has been 16 years since you died and the last time I saw Aunt Debbie and Uncle Walt was in September of 96 when Sherry got married to Gary. It will be good to be around family, I have Ray's family but its not the same. I havent talked to Joe (dad) in over a year. I am tired of trying to make him love me. I know I have made bad choices and mistakes in my life but noone is perfect. I do call Sherry occasionally, not alot, but at least I make the effort. The only ones that do call me are my boys. and thats all that really matters. One day Judith Christine will be 18 then she will know that I am her mom. they cant take her blood line away from me. It has been 7 yearssice I seen her last, she was 4. Jody and Edie wont even answer the phone when I call. The only one they are are hurting is my baby girl, when she grows up knows the truth about everything, they will wish they wouldnt have kept her from knowing me. Dont get me wrong, i am grateful that they are giving her a life that I was not able to do at that time in my life. And i would never try to take her from them. I would just like to know how she us doing and maybe get to see pictures of her growing up. The last picture Edie gave me was when she was four, now she is almost 11. Okay I think i gave went on about that enough for now. I love you Mom. Love your BABY Carrie Sue
carrie
12th March 2008